woots.
AIR SHOW......
*drowls.*
- Mood:
okay
trust me when i don't answer my phone or reply to msg is because....
1. i'm seriously busy.
2. i did'nt hear my phone.
3. maybe it's best you leave me alone.....
well, depress this days due to the behaviour of some ppl. seriously, just because i don't say it out loud does not mean some stuffs said does not disturb me. IT DOES!!! then i don't feel trustful talking again and i swear it WILL take a very long time to regain that trust i had.. sorry but this is me... i'm human so i can't be perfect in behaving and being nice all the time. (oh, i'm being nice by keeping quiet & distant so i don't say something hurtful, and i don't want to too.) i'm really sorry but i'll soon call when i'm normal and have a balance feeling. i just keep that distant to think and be alone and it will be hard to contact me, so it's better if it's given up.
end.
- Mood:
nostalgic
it's clear you can't have everything in life... something disheartens you but soon god never forgets to make you happy. but, what if the happiness you are getting is not what you expect? ok, maybe i should not be negative...
so, something importants happening on wednesday... hope it goes well...
PLS GOD!
(selfish pleas.)
oh...i hope the former sec 4 are happy with their postings...and for those who still are finding place or appealing... i'll pray for you & hope you get in what's best for you.. ;)
as my bro say, : "whatever happens, happens for the best."
i'll chant it for a while.
- Mood:
optimistic
it's just like i'll lost myself in this holidays... i'm not me. hahas...or i really have changed?
well, i'm getting good at controlling my anger. hahas... just found this today while sweeping the floor. well, dad came home for lunch.. mum was out for work & i was sweeping the floor. so i have this weird thing of getting really pissed when some1 makes loud chewing sound when they eat since like i was born, that's what my grandma told me.
my dad has this habit of 'chewing loudly' & i was kinda pissed as always but instead of giving the "pfft" experssion...i went to my room, pluged in my headphones & blast the volume of my mp3. hahas... & i was happily sweeping. the end.
hahas, i once got beaten when i was 8 as i shouted at my dad, "stop making that sound...it's so irritating!!!"
hahas. since then i've just been giving the 'pfft" experssion. hahas.
"i hope my wish come true."
- Mood:
curious
life sucks without school... everybody seems so busy except me. hahas.
well, my dad agreed me creating a design on my room wall. cool! just that i need to create a design and colour scheme to go with my jade green wall. haiz. haiz..... wait, i feel lazy to paint cuz must shift stuff.. haiyo.haiyo.
ok, i'm done...
- Mood:
grumpy
